My Mothers Narcissistic Reaction to my Book Idea

Several years ago, I excitedly told my Mother over the phone that I was going to write a book about my process of recovery from chronic depression and dissociative identity disorder.  She reacted with strange sort of hesitation.  She didn’t ask any questions; she didn’t actually acknowledge this information at all.  I was used to … Continue reading "My Mothers Narcissistic Reaction to my Book Idea"

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Self Esteem, My Value and Learning to Love My Self

CELEBRATE ME The process of learning to love myself is best understood backwards; there are so many layers and levels to it; so much confusion. There was so much deception; deception that I had come to believe was truth, and on top of that deception, there was this thick layer of fog kind of hiding … Continue reading "Self Esteem, My Value and Learning to Love My Self"

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Rebuilding my Relationship with Me ~ Recovering from Dysfunctional

emotional healing from dysfunctional family Sometimes I feel as though I can never go back far enough in order to tell you how I got myself out of the emotional mess that I was in. Today I have been thinking about some of the questions that I began to ask myself in the process of … Continue reading "Rebuilding my Relationship with Me ~ Recovering from Dysfunctional"

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Keys to Living in the Present (the password is “the past”)

In order to live in the present I had to be willing to actually LOOK at what I was running from. I had to ask myself ~ why did I disconnect and dissociate. Why did I use food for comfort? Why did I go to bed for days on end? I had to ask myself what I was afraid of feeling. I had to become aware of my survival methods and look at where they came from; what they developed as a result of ~ and guess what??? All those questions led me back to the past.

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